Something you really want but aren’t allowed to have.
Uhmm…. allowed? Allowed is such an interesting word… I do want to be closer to certain individuals, but I’m not sure those individuals are interested in the same relationship I’m wanting. You get what I mean, anon?
Also, to be a companion on Doctor Who, but you know, real life won’t allow that either.
HOW DO YOU MAKE A GUY
so basically i realized that i am too afraid to open up to anyone. literally everyone and anyone. i do the required amount of interaction with people to get by and seem like a functional, okay 22 yr old. The moment anyone gets close to being a friend… i freak out, self sabotage and push them away.
i don’t know how i would do in a friendship, let alone a real relationship with a guy. i’ve been so hurt in the past. And i know the only way of fixing this is by risking my heart on someone…
i literally am freaking out about asking this really nice, really cute guy to coffee. TO JUST COFFEE. I don’t even know what i’m afraid of more, him saying no or him saying yes.
and there are just other people reaching out to me to, and i’m so paranoid about texting them too much or not responding the right way or how i’m being perceived.
sigh. when did i get so messed up?
You really only understand how drunk you are when you’re peeing